Welcome to Medium, Violet! We have fun here! Writing here is a change in you life! A good one! When had BS, I write and it helps. I quit smoking. and everytime I wanted a cig, I went running. It worked. The drinking can be like a dog casing it's tail. You are doing so great by sharing this. I love the sow Intervention. It's on youtube. here is one powerful episode fr you. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KIx2gHGv8S0