Hang in there Adrienne. I have been so alone for 20 months, but it gave me time to reflect. I cried some, but thank goodness for Medium. The beautiful people here were my lifeline, for which I will be eternally thankful! As for her being giving...maybe giving gave her strength, so maybe you getting the flowers was healing her. Email me any time. jmacgallery@gmail.com WE GOT THIS!